Sunday, November 30, 2008

I don’t want the dream to end.

My apologies for omitting her reaction to what I told her. I admit I was in a rush to get that last entry out so I could also write her a letter explaining to her the things I couldn’t quite get through on the spot. In the car, I simply told her that I’d crushed after her since we first met.

Her first reaction was “aw!” I liked that. It’s not a yes, which I wasn’t expecting anyway, but it was positive, and friendly. I told her I didn’t need her to say anything to me right away, which I reiterated and fortified in the e-mail I sent her last night. She said she would speak to me over msn at some point, and I was quite happy with that.

I have only just awoken. I’m surprised some people read my last entry already, since I posted it at midnight, but then again, I oft forget there are time zones. I stayed in bed for an hour this morning, unable to quite pull my mind out of its half-dreamy daze, because I know that sooner or later, I’m going to hear from her, and then the dream will end.

4 comments:

Inkpot said...

oh mal perhaps you will wake up and she will love u 2! I know u r on tender hooks at the moment. Remember u did the right thing. U were brave and true to yourself. Live ur life like that and u will reap great rewards. If I could send u something to help u through this time of waiting I would but I have only my words and I send these to let u know I'm rooting for u. U deserve the best. Iseult

Malice Blackheart said...

Your kind words are enough. Thanks, Inkpot.

Meghan said...

She has a lot of gusto from the sounds of it. And you were brave for coming forward as well. I hope things work out and have a lot of respect for the fact that you didn't pressure her fo an answer or resolution and are letting her to come it on her own terms. I find post break up it's a vulnerable dating space to be in. But if she's smart she'll see she doesn't want to lose such a great guy either!

Younghee-jin said...

I hope everything goes well and from what I've read I think she appreciates it a lot what you told her. Good luck.

By the way I changed the blog address you're following after my name.