Thursday, April 24, 2008

Jamming My Circuits

Writing Day: 6

Word Count: 15,508

Okay, finally I’m back on the writing bandwagon. As hard as I’ve tried to avoid it, I wound up building a huge crush on the woman that I’ve as of yet only gone on one date with, and have still so much to learn about. It has been jamming my circuits and though I admit I’ve not been terribly busy, my procrastination levels have been through the roof.

There was one moment back there that I became depressed for a time because she didn’t message me for 48 hours. I almost immediately decided that this was it, she’s decided I’m a loser and she’s moving on without another word.

And then of course, yesterday she sent me another message asking how I was, same as always, and it became obvious to me that I’m overanalyzing everything way too much, and starting to act a little psychotic. So I haven’t even written her back yet. Strangely, it isn’t even that I want to make her wait now. It’s more that I’d rather not be anticipation of her next move for once. And it’s really working too, for today, I put in another good day of writing, something I’ve been having trouble getting myself to do of late.

But enough about me, I’m going to get a head start on tomorrow’s entry.

Oh, and obviously, I’m not going to meet my goal for this month, but I don’t think it’s a total loss. Instead, I’m going to keep the goal 50,000 word intact, and carry it over into the next months. I said I could do it in 20 writing days, and I still believe that to be true. I was merely wrong about them all being in the same month.


johnny 5 is alive and horny, now what? said...

The best way to counter psychosis is a large dose of overwhelming normality. Why this doesn't work for the psychos I don't know.

Inkpot said...

I hope things go really well with you and this woman Mal:)

As regards writing, congrats on writing 15K this month, that is a wonderful achievement. Don't worry about 50K, aim for the same amount or maybe a little bit more in May. 15K of good writing is worth more than 50K of words that you have to rewrite hundreds of times to get right. That's what I've found anyway.:)